| Sunday, August 26th, 2007 |
| 1:46 am |
-Taking time to enjoy life has become increasingly hard for me when all I can do Is look forward. Seeing everything that is going to happen. Planning shit so far in the future as if im already supposed to be planning my own retirement. If you asked me I could probably give you an estimate of when im planning on quiting the job I just got and how long It will be before I have my next horrible day at work. It feels like with every plan I make for the future im sacrificing more of my life and I feel like its too much. public school really doesnt prepare you for actually having to make a conscious career choice. The plans ive made seem so simple, but sometimes I wish i could just fastforward my life for a year. -Every second is ticking before my best friend leaves me and it feels like I have so much left to say to her. I just wish I had more time, more time with her. But to be perfectly honest no amount of time is long enough. Time waits for no one and the accompanying feeling that so much is left unfinished, or that things wont change makes it all the more painful. I start hating myself for trying to be optimistic during every hardship I confront. Like my optimism is some obsticle or burden I cant grow out of. I wish I knew all the answers, I wish I could see the future. But all I can do is want and hope. But I wont let any amount of time or distance break our friendship apart. I refuse. I love her to much for that to happen. -Ive come to realize that Audrey Is the only person who reads my posts and I really dont know if i want her to read this one. I realize after a long while that when I vent it only hurts the ones I love. Well... the one person I love. |
| Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007 |
| 1:08 am |
boring update
Today it was the usual. went to classes at WSU with Audrey. Im tired of school already and summer is almost here BUT i have to take summer classes to. Im taking math 089 at 9 am. Damn. It would be cool if alex G got in my class but at the same time I probably need to have complete concentration for it since i havent taken math in the last 4 years. Went to a show at the Hawthorne with tom, mikey, don, and quintin. Finally got to see ceremonial casting. yesterday in billiards class connor threw a cue ball at my head and it seriously felt like i had a concussion so I went home and didnt go to my other two classes while i was icing my dome. fuck. |
| Wednesday, May 9th, 2007 |
| 11:05 pm |
Stuff n' junk
I worked for Jeris's parents this weekend and i made $120!!! Yeah, but back to the real world at my shitty job other then today. which is wednesday, i dont work until next friday, which is an 8 hour shift. Damn, I did so much shit today i dont know where to begin... or if i even want to begin. Nobody wants to read this shit. I pretty much figured out my whole scholastic future today. Bleak. I got some years ahead. So now my sister is gonna be a pharmacist. We'll im sure she'll drop or change whatever program she decides to go into in a couple months just like she has the last 8 times. Audrey's bro and sis are both getting married this summer too. Weirdo's. |
| Monday, January 15th, 2007 |
| 11:25 am |
Kevin<3<3<3's Audrey
SO saterday was mine and Audrey's 2 year anniversary!!!<3 yeah, and I took her to Longview and had a suprise picnic by the lake. It was nice but really cold. Then I showed her my old house and some other places around there. :) Bad news though. on the way back to vancouver i got a freakin speeding ticket for going 83 in a 70, $122 ticket. It sucks and the cop was telling me how he could give me a seperate 1000$ ticket for not having current registration on the car, even though its my dad's and it is up to date, they just havent switched the papers in the car. :( But other then that the whole day and the rest of the night was really fun. today is audrey's first day/orientation thing at safeway. hmm what else... to much reading at school. ive been trying to download audiobooks for the books im supposed to read for class off of limewire but no success yet. |
| Tuesday, November 14th, 2006 |
| 12:01 am |
So basically... i dont know. ANYTHING my body is totally jacked. I have to go to the chiropractor soon again. my neck and back are all fucked up and it starts hurting when i sit down. :/ Bloc Party and The Absence cancelled which trully were the only two shows i was looking forward to for a long time. Hung out with Tish today and we went and rented movies again. This time we got some good ones though. Fuck. the movies we got last time blew. Then me thomas jeris and tish went to p town and tom bought a jean jacket... again. And then we wandered around for a while. Also there is this really cool secret CD shop on hawthorne that is super secret and super awesome and nobody knows about it. So if you ever want to go you have to take me. I know the password. ;) latta |
| Tuesday, November 7th, 2006 |
| 5:55 pm |
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Damn... i havent posted anything in my LJ since graduation last june.
A lot has changed since then. A lot.
And I realize that nobody really reads my LJs so more or less im just writting
this so i have something to look back at.
Over the summer:
went to California with Audrey and my fam. It was fun as hell and hot.
Got job at Blockbuster.
what else?
Now...
Been Single now for the past couple weeks... :/
I guess it gives me and audge a chance to work on being better friends now I hope.
Im taking all real classes this quarter.
And ive got tests like every week now.
still no car yet. I know what kind I want now at least. Subaru OUTBACK!!! So i can haul shit.
Bloc Party is next month.
yup... till next time. |
| Tuesday, June 13th, 2006 |
| 12:13 pm |
Fucks yes. Graduation day. And i finished my last fucking paper yesterday. Im fuckin out thats it no more waking up early and sitting in front of douchebags. No more having to learn the exact same thing every year. Im out! summer plans anyone? roadtrips? eh eh eh>? lets do something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !! i wanna watch Oz. Come on, were gonna take a shower I already took one Yeah i know.... and you're gonna need another one when im done with you |
| Thursday, May 25th, 2006 |
| 12:14 pm |
bored bored bored... now i just have to play the waiting game. 2 hours till tish gets home and we hang out. hmm. then i have class and then im gonna visit Haley cuz its her last day of work. Myspace isnt working. Bummer. talk to me people. <3 |
| Wednesday, May 24th, 2006 |
| 11:08 pm |
school. you know what... im sick and tired of it. And thats the damn truth. Summer needs to come faster. And it needs to stop raining. I wanna go swimming and what Kevin wants kevin maulfuckin gets aight nig!!! 1.School 2.home for lil while wit Audge watched scary show about wegie(sp?) boards and Ghosts and other crazy shit like 2 killer lions that killed like 130 people. RAWR!!!!!! 3. more school art class and tone and trim. im getting sick of them too. it feels like i cant even talk or be human in those classes. just sit there and draw my shitty pictures with chalk 4.free from school for the day!!!!! 5. me and audrey go to some bubble tea place in the mall and damn those drinks are crazy!!! 6. went home 7. just finished typing a masterpiece poetry paper P.S. Staph infection is gross. Thats right im talking to you Thomas!!! i need a sars mask to be around you. poop the end |
| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006 |
| 10:04 pm |
todayyyy!!!!!!!!!! well... hmm. ok so i go to school and and and well that was all normall. and then i go home and Audrey leaves to go get her interview in Tigard which i still havent heard anything about so i guess i will later. Hmm.... so then i call Tish Tash and see what she is doing but she has a play-date with Nate and Cie so im not invited. so i call thomas and see what he is doing and he is making a film with connor so they come get me and we go to tom's house where i eat 4 bananas. mmm hmm and we made part of the movie there. then we went to connors house. and then i went home which is where i am right now currently typing this yeah! yeah!! yeah!!! |
| Monday, May 22nd, 2006 |
| 11:01 pm |
so ive decided once again to begin updating everyday that i remember to . im gonna post the most boring shit or anything. cuz i dont even give a shit. itll still be something i can look back at in the future and laugh at. So today...hmm woke up late cuz of stupid fucking nickelodeon alarm clock being a cunt. haleyhaleyhaley was nice enough to pick me up so i didnt have to walk in the pouring rain. got to school me and haley stayed in her car for a while and talked about funny work stories. went to SGT.'s class and watched movie. went home for lunch. Audrey said that she posted a resume on Monster.com and she got a call back and she has an interview tomarrow which is really cool and i hope she gets the job if it turns out to be a good one. She deserves an awesome job and it will get her out of the scary ghetto she works in now. went to class at clark lil bit of drama with audge mostly on my part and not being able to shut my mouth. went tanning thought about calling thomas but didnt cuz it was late. went to WALMART and bought 5 pairs of coooool summer shorts and 2 lil kid shirts the end enjoy! :) |
| Saturday, May 20th, 2006 |
| 4:27 pm |
i wish it was easier to stay high on life. a nigga can get his hopes brought down easy in this world. Its weird. waiting. when i already know the answer to a question and youre hoping that it will come out different then you expected. But you know that even if it works out in your favor youre truely hurting someone else. its the sadest thing ive had to go through. But the possibility that some miracle happens and everyone can win thats what makes it all worth it. Audrey has a fashion show comming in the summer and im gonna send in an app. for it. That could be fun. work is aight. <3 |
| Saturday, May 6th, 2006 |
| 12:01 am |
three little girls came to my door today and asked me if me and Dutch would be their new friends. I told themm yes. it was kinda weird. There new here. I bought the New Thursday CD and I bought The Go! Team CD. I like them. Tomarrow is Prom. I hope everything goes OK. |
| Monday, May 1st, 2006 |
| 10:14 pm |
Today i got to draw pictures of skulls. yeah! i wanna work more so i can have more money. |
| Wednesday, April 19th, 2006 |
| 9:49 pm |
Im tired of everything. After I get out of school I just wanna go for a walk. Everything i do is the same over and over again. I want to be better at guitar I want to be better at drawing I want to be able too write I wish I could still skate so me and Nathan would start hanging out more like old times. All i ever do is want ...its a bitch |
| Sunday, March 26th, 2006 |
| 11:07 am |
i never know what to do to make anything better anymore. I feel so pathetic and useless when it comes to it. and it always felt like i tried to make a difference and be as best as i could. but what do you do when your friend basically says they dont feel like your friend anymore?.....help :( |
| Tuesday, March 21st, 2006 |
| 8:12 pm |
last night: The Red Chord/The Agony scene/Black Dahlia Murder Agony scene was good Red chord was good Black dahlia murder was like normal Throwdown sucks more and more every time i listen to them here is a shitty pic from my phone  |
| Sunday, March 19th, 2006 |
| 6:19 pm |
yeahso yesterday was Dead 2 Fall/a life once lost/the acacia strain/himsa/darkest hour. Kevin: Fat lip/ smollen eyebrow connor:dome crack with big bump. Don: 1 foot long bloody-lookin kick mark across chess Quinton: Face smashed red black and blue, not allowed to go into work thomas:stubbed his toe and cried all night cuz he is a big baby wah wah wah :'( it was basically insane. everyone was there. and it was cool. and tomarrow is the red chord/the agony scene/BDM and throwdown. which is probably going to be the last show i go to in a while cuz yeah...im getting to old for this. i got a job!!! yeah! i dont get to work for a while but its at the jack in the box in salmon creek...and i get to work with my sister which is probably going to get really weird or really anoying...meh. im going to Washington DC over spring break which is kind of a bummer. Cuz my mom wants to go to DC i guess and i made her a list of places that are better to go to then washington DC but i guess she really wants me to go or something... i just dont see why she wont take me to like Disneyworld or something. oh yeah and now its official that me thomas and nathan are not going to the festival down in SoCal with Daft Punk Bloc party sigur ros and other bands which was kinda a major bummer but whatev. Me and thom are gonna try to go to the metal fest down there thats comming up soon instead cuz its only like 30$ but we just need a ride. yeah so...yeah...im ready for anything    |
| Thursday, February 23rd, 2006 |
| 3:54 pm |
last night Chiodos, BoysNightOut, Armor for sleep. It was one of the freakin best shows ive been to in a while. Chiodos was amazing live holy shit and the singer looks just fucking like Nathan lane well.....a much skinnier less gay version of nathan lane. But yeah they were amazing live BoysNightOut.......blew ass Armor for Sleep<3<3<3 They were soooooooooooooooo good!!!! yes! yes!! yes!!! yes!!!! yes!!!!! yes!!!!!! yes!!!!!!! |
| Thursday, February 16th, 2006 |
| 10:12 pm |
oh yes....there will be blood
today... TODAY!!! well lets see what happened...hmmm oh yeah it was really cold and its gonna be cold-er tomarrow. which sucks. Me and thomas watched SAW II and it was cool...again and then we watched part of a dinosaur movie...which now i realy want to finish watching. thomas brought over both of the good Daft Punk CDs so now i have them both yes!!! class is getting weirder and weirder. i noticed that my teacher always uses the same weird words to desribe things and it makes my head explode. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. and i find myself doing the weirdest things in class. like ill zone out looking at a weird looking chick or ill draw pictures of giant octopus's and say to myself "damn, id hate to meet that big octopus". or ill listen to my teachers voice and try and guess the name of that one actor who he sounds just like...i dont know, he was on that one movie that i saw, he plays the asshole. das end |
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